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重新振作的艺术 荷叶/译 我信仰的核心是相信绝对美好。和任何其他人一样，我也有情绪低落的时候，也有感觉好像被逆了龙鳞，步履艰难地逆流而上的时候。但即使在这种黑暗的时候，即使在我感觉好像与世隔绝，孤独寂寞，哪怕是被冷淡疏远时，我依然知道自己是整体的一部分，而这个整体是真实而美好的。 我从没怀疑过上帝，我不相信个性化的上帝，我怎么可能相信上帝会懂得善恶，却还要相信它。我相信上帝，美好和一神论。我相信我们都属于这个唯一，并且是这个唯一的一部分。 过了一些时候我才理解了“容忍”和“理解”。多年来，我只是口头上说说“容忍”和“理解”，直到现在我才开始对这两个词的含义有了一点了解。如果我们都是互相联系的，这虽然不太舒服，但事情可能正是这样，那我们迟早要互相容忍。我相信人的个性，只有亲身经历过，我们当中的任何一个，才有可能对理解做一点点贡献。 我一直对自我和自负有一点困惑，因为我本能地认为它们会妨碍理解。从某种程度上讲，的确如此。 我过去非常担心个性和自负那类的东西。我注意到某些艺术家，比如说音乐家，他们把自己的个性置于音乐和听众之间。但其他更伟大因此也更谦逊的人，把自己变成了畅通无阻的渠道，让人们借此来赏听音乐。我突然想到，我们所了解的人身上的善良来自上帝，因此，最好是尽可能远离卑污的自己。但这做起来并不容易，尤其是当你身在舞台时。 我是个乐天派，即使情绪低落，也会尽快振作起来。我对于管理家务，查看要回复的信件，都有计划。也就是说，我会完成这些琐事，以享受剩下的时光。但在行善的信仰与行动中，我发现我不能做出计划，我的意思是说，不能做出重要计划。但我会留出余地，使之尽可能畅通无阻。这当然意味着无所畏惧而不是听天由命。因为我相信当我满怀信心静待事情平静地发生时，它就会发生。这种静待不是消极状态，而是深知自己的真实处境。 朋友是人生中最重要的东西，是被他人所需要的奇迹。但这一切都将逝去，最终我们会独自面对上帝。我还没有为此做好准备，但我心灵的目光已洞悉这一切。 我还没有彻底理解这些，但我相信只有现在是真实的，我们的工作就是认识现在，享受现在。这个现在当然不是指周一，周五，任何一天，不是人们可以测量的，而是真理的现在。它不会改变，当然，做过的每一件事都已成为过去。揭示现在，享受现在还是个小小的问题。 附：原文 I think the center of my faith is an absolute certainty of good. Like everyone else, I get low and there are times when I feel as if I have my finsbackwards and am swimming upstream in heavy boots. But even in these darktimes, even though I feel cut off, perhaps, and alone, I am aware - even if distantly - that I am part of a whole and that the whole is true and real and good. I have never had any difficulty in believing in God. I don't believe in apersonal God and I don't quite see how it is possible to believe in a God whoknows both good and evil and yet to trust in him. I believe in God, Good, inOne Mind, and I believe we are all subject to and part of this oneness. It's taken me time to understand words like "tolerance" and"understanding." I have given lip service to "tolerance"and to "understanding" for years but only now do I think I begin to understand a little what they mean. If we are all one of another, and this,though uncomfortably, is probably the case, then sooner or later we have got tocome to terms with each other. I believe in the individuality of man, and it isonly by individual experience that we can, any of us, make a contribution tounderstanding. I've always been a bit confused about self and egotism because I instinctively felt both were barriers to understanding. And so in a sense they are. I used to worry a lot about personality and that sort of egotism. Inoticed that certain artists - musicians, for instance - would allow their personalities to get between the music and the listener. But others, greaterand therefore humbler, became clear channels through which the music washeard unimpeded. And itoccurred to me, not very originally, that the good we know in man is from God so it is a good thing to try to keep oneself as clear as possible from thewrong sort of self. And it's not very easy, particularly if you are on thestage! I am one of those naturally happy people even when they get low soon bounce back. In minor things like housekeeping and keeping in sight of letters to be answered I am a Planny-Annie. That is to say I get through the chores in order to enjoy the space beyond. But I do find that, believing in the operation of good as I do, I cannot make plans - important ones, I mean - but I must prepare the ground and then leave the way free as far as possible. This, ofcourse, means being fearless and isn't fatalistic, because you see I believethat when I am faithful enough to be still and to allow things to happenserenely, they do. And this being still isn't a negative state but an awarenessof one's true position. Friends are the most important things in my life - that and the wonder ofbeing necessary to someone. But these things pass and in end one is alone withGod. I'm not nearly ready for that yet, but I do see it with my heart's eye. I don't understand it entirely, but I believe there is only now and our job is to recognize and rejoice in this now. Now... Not, of course, theman-measured now of Monday, Friday, or whenever, but the now of certain truth.That doesn't change. Surely everything has been done - is done. Our little problem is to reveal and enjoy.
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